Edisi Mending Ikhlas: Karena Diriku..

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I didn’t know at first but I realized after you left That my selfishness gave you a hard time But you don’t know, you haven’t seen my true heart, so girl listen to me I always turned my words around because of my pointless pride Even up until the moment you turned away, I couldn’t say a word In case someone sees, I pretended I was fine I just bit my lips and my head just grew blank for a moment I guess my over affection became obsession to you My efforts to become one with you became selfishness In the end, I’m alone, although this isn’t what my heart wants I’m left alone on the night streets Memories of loving you, good memories How can I erase you? Although you left me Memories of you loving me, they are bad memories to you I guess that’s why it hurts You treated me like a mentally ill person The more you did that, I tried to imprison you When I was tired of you trying to run away, you suddenly broke up with me Being left alone again hurt so much but after thinking about it, I was so bad I don’t know why but because I cared for you so much, I can’t stand the memories of being bad to you After looking back, I was the narrow-minded one I pretended to understand you but I was just holding it in I knew we were different but I tried to fit you in my boundaries I tried hundreds of times to trap you inside I guess I believed in the saying “beautiful restriction” I’m probably the one who is lacking Although it’s not true for you, I only have good memories When I open my eyes, my hands go to my phone like a habit Memories of loving you, good memories How can I erase you? Although you left me Memories of you loving me, they are bad memories to you I guess that’s why it hurts Do you know my heart? Do you know my heart? I still want you but you don’t want me, it’s hard to handle that I need you come back to me Memories of loving you, good memories How can I erase you? Although you left me Memories of you loving me, they are bad memories to you I guess that’s why it hurts Pro C (Feat. K.Will) – Bad Memory (나쁜 기억) Mungkin anda pernah merasa menyesal atas seseorang atau sesuatu yang tidak bisa anda dapatkan padahal anda sudah mengupayakan banyak hal untuk itu dan pada akhirnya anda berkata "Aku menginginkannya karena aku merasa telah berjuang mati-matian untuknya". Sesuatu bisa menjadi amat sangat berarti jika kita benar-benar menganggap hal itu penting. Menganggap penting sesuatu itu akan sangat berarti dalam upaya kita mencapai sesuatu. Namun, jika menganggap nya terlalu penting bisa-bisa kita malah jauh dengan tujuan kita Itu. Tempatkanlah sesuatu sepenting mungkin, dan usahakanlah dengan tidak merugikan siapapun termasuk diri sendiri. Ingat, tak semua hal yg kita anggap penting bakal bisa diraih. Boleh jadi, karena memang bukan milik kita, bukan karena kita kurang kuat mengusahakannya. Carilah yg penting dalam hidup kita. Jika kita gagal jangan kecewa. Masih ada banyak hal penting lainnya yang menunggu di depan. Biarkan rasa kehilangan dan sakit karena tidak bisa memiliki menjadi ingatan yang kamu simpan sebagai suatu kenangan saja. Cukup dikenang tidak usah diingat berkepanjangan. Masa lalu sudahlah lalu! -y-